Burn the Fleet

What does it mean when you want something so bad that you give up on it? Something that you have absolutely tried your hardest to make sure it becomes accomplished, but one day you wake up and realize it's not going to work no matter how hard you try. Extenuating circumstances prevent any advances in what you are putting so much energy into. At what point do you finally wave the white flag. Is it okay to let all that effort and time to just fall by the way side? I came to this realization the other day. It left me feeling empty. It's like raising a child for so long and then waking up one morning and realizing you no longer want to be a parent. How does someone accept that?
I spent the majority of that day lost in thought trying to decide my course of action. Most of the time I let my problems spill into the laps of others, and do my best to formulate an opinion based on pros and cons I gather from all of those unfortunate people who happen to show up online. This was different. I felt that it was something that only I could make a decision on what to do. There was no running to others or hiding behind someone else's reasoning. I defined the term "internal debate" that day. I housed the WWIII version of my thoughts inside of my cranium with each side putting up a lot of fight.
In the end it dawned on me that if I still cared enough about this to trouble myself this much on what to do, then quite possibly it is still worth getting up and partaking in. One cannot just get up and walk away from problems. All problems have a solution and it is up to us as individuals to sit down and work out the best possible solutions for them.
Now to check back into the real world. Tonight is the start of Round 2 of the Stanley Cup Playoffs. We have Philly v. Montreal and Colorado v. Detroit. Both should be pretty good games, and of course the Penguins kick off Round 2 against the Rangers tomorrow. However, I will be at a wrestling show you can see here. So if anyone could be so kind and keep my updated on the game that would be GREAT!
I also found out this week that I am now a father!! I know surprised me too, but don't worry I handled it well. Say hi to her here.
Really I think thats about all I have for now. Until next time. Keep your head out of the clouds.

Random Thoughts and Comments

Alright, alright it's now time for my sophomore post! Just got a few things since my last post that have occurred or stood out to me.


1. I hate stupid promotional things that I must "push on people" Would you want to tell people that this guy....

....is going to make them want to rent more movies!

2. I love the city I live on the outskirts of. Not many places are you gonna see this in morning rush hour traffic.

Sooo great. Yes those are bumper stickers covering the entire car, and bobble heads on the roof and hood.

3. An old opinion from a friend, that Sherwin Williams Paint is nothing but Corporate Communists, as proven here.

They want to cover the Earth red? Why not a nice serene blue, or bright, chipper yellow?? I smell commie bastards!

4. To wrap it up I turn to you, 5-6 blog readers! I need an opinion. Would this make a good tattoo?

Thats all I have for now, so go on now. Get your head out of the clouds!

Guess What........

Well everyone it looks like I finally cracked and got myself one of these shiny, new, fandangled blogs. I've never put much thought into one of these before so I apologize now if I "break blog etiquette" or simply offend you. Well, actually I don't mind as much if I offend you . Like my good friend Lunchbox says, "Lighten the F*** up, it's the internet."

Well seeing as this is the "cherry popper" of my blog, I had no idea what I was gonna write about. I figure the best way to start things, is to answer the question most are going to ask me.

"Why Cloud Envy?"

To be completely honest, it kind of just came to me. I sat and thought "what do I want to call this thing?" and poof there it was. As an after thought I began to think of different reasons on how Clouds can relate to a blog and why would someone envy them.

It's my belief that nothing is really more creative than a Cloud. An entity that is constantly changing and becoming new and different things. Two people can look at the same cloud and see two completely different things. This can translate well to a blog. A blog being an extension of creation and imagination will change and transform as one grows, matures, and just over all lives. The blog will change and adjust to the path of life the blogger travels upon. Much like clouds as they travel through our atmosphere along the paths of wind.

Another point is that to admire the clouds one always must be looking up at them, and this is a positive to moving forward. Who knows maybe someone will be reading my blog here and be inspired or feel the urge to "look up to me" All I can hope for is that someday at some point someone's life will be impacted by the words that I scribe on this digital tablet.

I guess this allows me to realize why I envy them so. Clouds float lazily dealing with whatever mother nature has planned for them, changing and adjusting as I mentioned earlier. They can bring peace and tranquility, or rage and chaos during the fiercest of storms. It's life boiled down to its simplest form. That leaves me green indeed. If only one could go through life just taking things as they come.

I believe I have gone on long enough here. Guess I should wrap it up and start planning what's next. Maybe the science behind clouds. Who knows.

Until next time.