Burn the Fleet

What does it mean when you want something so bad that you give up on it? Something that you have absolutely tried your hardest to make sure it becomes accomplished, but one day you wake up and realize it's not going to work no matter how hard you try. Extenuating circumstances prevent any advances in what you are putting so much energy into. At what point do you finally wave the white flag. Is it okay to let all that effort and time to just fall by the way side? I came to this realization the other day. It left me feeling empty. It's like raising a child for so long and then waking up one morning and realizing you no longer want to be a parent. How does someone accept that?
I spent the majority of that day lost in thought trying to decide my course of action. Most of the time I let my problems spill into the laps of others, and do my best to formulate an opinion based on pros and cons I gather from all of those unfortunate people who happen to show up online. This was different. I felt that it was something that only I could make a decision on what to do. There was no running to others or hiding behind someone else's reasoning. I defined the term "internal debate" that day. I housed the WWIII version of my thoughts inside of my cranium with each side putting up a lot of fight.
In the end it dawned on me that if I still cared enough about this to trouble myself this much on what to do, then quite possibly it is still worth getting up and partaking in. One cannot just get up and walk away from problems. All problems have a solution and it is up to us as individuals to sit down and work out the best possible solutions for them.
Now to check back into the real world. Tonight is the start of Round 2 of the Stanley Cup Playoffs. We have Philly v. Montreal and Colorado v. Detroit. Both should be pretty good games, and of course the Penguins kick off Round 2 against the Rangers tomorrow. However, I will be at a wrestling show you can see here. So if anyone could be so kind and keep my updated on the game that would be GREAT!
I also found out this week that I am now a father!! I know surprised me too, but don't worry I handled it well. Say hi to her here.
Really I think thats about all I have for now. Until next time. Keep your head out of the clouds.